Later this morning

After my last post I prayed. I prayed the way I am supposta pray. I told God I was not strong enought for this pain, and I gave it to him. I told him my body can not take this abuse I am giving it because of my need to have some control. I told him that I could not function on this lack of sleep night after night. I laid it all at the cross. I let him take it. I can't anymore. I didn't sleep last night, but I got a shower and went to church. I felt the best I have felt since Wed morning. I served at church, both services. Went out on the boat. and then that happy feeling began to fade as the day went along. By 5pm I was hurting physically. I barely functioned as a parent this evening. I ate a bite of pizza and a fork full of noodles. Now I am fighting sleep. Why fight it? I know that I want to get up in the morning and go for a run. My muscles need it. My head needs it. I will wake up and do my devotional, and then pray while I am running. I don't think God minds running and praying.

At church Mike covered a lot of things. One, we have choices some of them easy and some of them difficult. We choose who to love. This about knocked me off my chair, luckly Baron was there if i did fall! Because it was exactly what I said to him earlier. Everytime I go to The Cove, I swear Mike talks to me! Second, false idols aka "little g gods". I thought about my 'little g gods'; they are alchol, tobacco, friends, boat and love. As long as your 'little g gods' are done in moderation then they are not a problem. When they interfer with your life it becomes a problem. Third, politics and mainstream society.

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I don't know anyone that does not have 'little g gods'. I just named the ones that popped in my head at that moment. I think those are the ones that I do get carried away with. The ones that can drive me crazy when I have them too much or too little. The ones that can interfer with each other or with the 'big G'. I could list more but why bother? These are the things that I am going to work on, work on the good and bad parts of my 'little g gods' Wish me luck!
Now I am thinking I need to start another post. Different subject, different post---My blog, my rules!

Peace,
Maria