Confused

I suddenly, well not so suddenly, feel myself in a state of confusion. It has been coming on for over a month now and it just keeps building like a tidal wave. I am unsure if it is the fact my divorce paperwork should be in the mail any day or if it is a natural change given the change in seasons. I have never felt a need to change greater than this.
The normal decisions seem to take me a while to make. I am lacking in energy, and I am eating anything that crosses my path. If nothing else is a clue that something is wrong than the eating thing is a red flag as big as a school bus with its lights flashing! I tried to pretend for a while it would go away but it is not. I tried to convince myself it is hormonal but this is lasting too long. I don't feel lost I feel at a loss. I watched Pray Eat Love last night and much of what she was going thru is the way I feel except I cant run away  for a year to 'find myself'.
I have been determined to learn how to accept me, the alone me. Not the me wrapped up in a relationship. And today a 'friend' tells me I need to move on...to find a man and get married! That is exactly what I don't need! I tried to explain that I don't need someone else to complete me, that I am a complete person. Althougth I liken myself to a puzzle with a missing piece, I thought for a long time that I was more likely missing dozens of pieces. Little by little I find them, tucked in the recesses of my mind, heart and soul. I know that it will take a while to find the last remaining pieces but I know the beautiful picture will emerge soon enough. (Ohhh, idea....what a painting that will make....me with a few missing pieces. I am not much for self portraits but that one could be fun in a demanding way! Thought provoking...where will this one lead?) I am determined to complete this puzzle before I can start to put together a new one! In the art of puzzle construction I will admit that I will not complete a puzzle if the edge pieces are not all there. The edge is like the foundation for a building. If it is not complete the building will collapse. My edges are there! I am mostly filled in...now is the hard part the fine details...the hard to see colors and shapes. And then there are pieces that have fallen on the floor or in a near by chair. Knocked off by a sleeve or the box top.
So where does that leave me? Still looking at pieces that don't seem to fit knowing they have to fit somewhere and searching for the obivious missing ones.

Peace,
Maria